Time to Dwell?

Here I am, it’s 1:01am and I’m working on tasks that I envisioned I would have made a lot more progress on earlier in the day. In the last few days, there have been so many minor adjustments to my schedule which have accumulated to massive delays on my current projects. It’s hard not to feel defeated. And on top of that, I decided to write these thoughts before I started my work session for the evening. I felt like releasing these thoughts, before I resumed work, would ultimately increase my productivity. (I’ll report back if my theory is correct).

However, I realize that this is a moment to reflect and process. And while I feel frustrated with myself, I know this is the best time to work through whatever it is I’m feeling. Taking time to reflect, can alleviate unnecessary tension. So, in this moment here are some questions I have for myself:

• How will dwelling or stressing about my inefficient day help me resolve what I need to do?

• What can I do for myself to better handle my time?

• Are there boundaries I need to put in place to protect my creative space? (Spoiler alert: yes)

• How can I communicate my boundaries in a respectful way?

• Am I acknowledging the progress I make considering unforeseen circumstances?

• How can I mitigate the feeling of frustration when certain things aren’t going as I envisioned?

As I write, and think about these questions, the tension has already begun to dissipate. This is a process that I will continue to learn from, but I think what’s important about this moment is that I’ve implemented this crucial time to reflect.