Coffee Break Up?

I had way too much coffee today. It started with a grande size cup, which was much larger than my usual tall size. (Note: I didn’t have Starbucks, I’m only referencing their sizes).

At first, I thought it’d be too much. However, it had a lot of oat milk, so I figured it wouldn’t be as strong.

Then, I went out for a spontaneous brunch where we sat outside in the cold. We had heat lamps surround us, but I figured I needed something hot to drink so, yes you guessed it, I ordered another cup of coffee and oat milk.

By the time I was back home, I was all the way wired. I decided to take advantage of my extra dose of energy and cook up a storm. Halfway through cooking fried rice, I began to feel my energy slope down in a weird way. I began to feel anxious.

Anxiety is one of the worst feelings in the world. I think it’s safe to say we’ve all felt anxious for one reason or another. Often, when I overdo it on the caffeine, I’ll feel a visceral reaction to my mood.

A negative vibe that I can’t seem to shake. The common denominator will almost always be because of drinking too much coffee.

The feeling lingered all day but thankfully has since subsided. I didn’t do this, but I should’ve taken a moment to meditate and center myself. Breathing has such an incredible way of healing whatever it is I feel stressed about.

Instead, I tried to channel my energy towards creative moments. I continued to cook and document the process with videos and pictures, which made me very happy. I watched one of my favorite episodes of the Office, with my family. And just as the day was about to end, I captured the many colors and shades of tonight’s magical sunset.

I realized that the antidote to my anxiety, was being present to the joyful moments around me. As for taking a break from coffee? I’ll see how I feel in the morning.